regret...

Empty after this sad feeling and I dont know what to do again really. These all seem like avoid me and always try pushing me again and again and again.

DAMN! I do DISLIKE living like this. EMPTY really. I couldnt be like I am. I even couldnt find where myself is right now. Bcos all of these want me to separate from me to be a BETTER someone. Really now I am fed up with all of these, I lost my friends and I lost that faith…

dududuuuu.

I know MY OLD FRIEND, that I was going wrong and I was on the wrong my place so thank you very much to warn me and thank you for your attention really I appreciate your opinion *although you only told your NEW friend's opinion about me but still I did appreciate it so much.
And thank you bcos you actually the one who could make me realize and you were the one who could make me recover from this broken feeling.
But I do NOT even understand you today, THIS AFTERNOON. Sumpaaaa! Really maybe I still do NOT know all about you and I am not your CLOSE friend and it is just the same like you, but it doesnt mean that I WAS NOT and AM NOT YOUR FRIEND. You often said that you are regret for having a friend like me, regret for being care for me, regret and always regret.

Tell me where do I go wrong? Am I making mistake AGAIN? Or am I too burden you or am I am I am I?
I’ve followed what you want from me. I do have made some changes to be a different AWID. I do want to be a BETTER person from your perspective. I do and I do it. So whats more? What do you want me to do AGAIN?
Are you still not satisfied with all of my sacrifice? Are you still UNHAPPY to see me like this, now I am really HURT and SHOCKED here. IS IT STILL NOT ENOUGH? SO tell me WHAT IS MORE?
You were the one who could make me realize but also now you are the one who can make me fed up with all of these.
You have lost my faith and it is over now, thank you bcos you have stated me as your OLD FRIEND!