Sabtu, 15 Agustus 2009

Aiiiih, kesel bangeeet! Ga ada pesiar buat beberapa minggu ke depan, praktis bulan ini aku ga keluar "penjara". It feels like I am sentenced *haha*

well...
This is story of very long story *aku lagi males nulis. tiap uda ngetik blogger.com tapi tar malah kebawa fb-an. Padahal juga kalo fb-an ga ngapa ngapain hehe*

sekarang si anak uda kelas XII bukan kelas XI lagi. bukan 'warriors' lagi tapi uda jadi 'jisad gym'. uda mau meninggalkan TN dengan melewati banyak ujian *alah! uda harus mature dan ga boleh childish apa apa mama ato bapak lagi *aduuh!

Banyak yang harus dipikirin. Dari soal kelulusan dulu deh, belom nyari sekolah.
Masalahnya adeknya juga mau lulus SMP. Aku lulus SMA *amin. Adeknya mau masuk TN aku mau kuliah. Otomatis beban si mama sama si bapak jadi dobel. Si bapak pengen banget si anaknya yang manja pol pol-an ini masuk akpol biar jadi jenderal. Tapi si anak ngerasa ga sreg, ga tau kenapa yaaa ga sreg aja gimana dong?

Yaaa akhirnya si anak bener2 ga daftar dah.

Karena itu, si anak ngerasa berdosa sama si bapak. Ya sebenernya maksud si bapak mah bae dan mulia tiada tara. Bapak pengennya abis nempuh pendidikan terakhir si anak itu ga perlu repot nyari kerja ke sana ke mari.
Cumaaa masalahnya pikiran si anak itu banyak hambatan
1. hati ga sreg
2. gigi ompong sampe 4 di geraham kecil
3. tinggi jauh dari cukup
Bingung lah si anak, daripada ngerasa sia sia.

Bapak sih aga ga ngizinin kuliah karena kalo abis kuliah belom ada jaminan. kalo masuk akpol kan langsung dinas. Ya jadilah si anak berpikiran untuk melanjutkan ke sekolah kedinasan, macam STAN, STEM, STSN gitu gitu lah. Cumaaaa lagi lagi ada masalah.
STAN tesnya baru mulai juli, STSN juga. STEM ga sih, tapi lebih minat ke STAN. Tapi kalo ga keterima yauda nganggur satu taun. Sama aja kan jatohnya di kuliah. 
Lha terus, datanglah tawaran ke Jerman dari sebuah manajemen. Tertariklah si anak tadi. Tapi bayar manajemennya kan sama aja kaya kuliah. Lagi lagi berdosa ga mau bebanin bapak.

Lalu lalu lalu ??
what should she do?

will it be ended before it begun

is this a beginning?

no no it is not because it has not been started.

is this an end?

no definitely bcos no one has said it was over.

So what is this?
Start from a missunderstanding to something that unplanned before. something that I've tried to deny and ignore.
Am I wrong to through all of these? Am I wrong having all of these?
Tell me where did I go wrong?

I've tried to convince myself, but all of these make me scared. make me bored. make me confused.
til I get one argument that I directly try to ignore.
I only dont want if the old story will be happened anymore, no not for twice.

Sabtu, 01 Agustus 2009

annoying

WHAT A DAY!


what an annoying and boring day today, hhhh!


Emang dari awal kemaren aku uda boring total apalagi kejadian kemaren malem pas aku dimarahin di lapangan apel malem malem sama salah satu pamong graha gara gara aku ga ambil kunci graha. 

Masya Allah plis dah, aku uda bolak balik ke Seroja Cempaka Seroja lagi trus akhirnya ke Cempaka lagi sedangkan partner aku yang satunya asik nyantai duduk nunggu aku bolak balik kaya setrikaan. Eeeeh dengan seenaknya aku dimarahin pas apel, dijewer. Ga sakit sih emang, tapi keselnya itu lo setengah mampus. Masa pengorbanan aku bolak balik ga dihargain aaah kesel!!! Partner aku yang nyante gitu ga diapa apain.


Langsung dari depan cempaka aku ke wartel tiba tiba kepikiran rumah aja trus aku telpon mama. Pas mama sama bapak belom tidur, langsung aku ngedumel sama mama, mama sih yaaa ketawa ketawa aja. Pas aku ngomong sama bapak, baru kata pertama, "Kenapa, ndhuk?" dengan suara khas bapak yang kaya ngajak anaknya yang masih balita ngomong, tiba tiba aja 


'TES' air mata jatuh tak tertahankan, hahaha jadilah aku menangis semalam!


Pagi ini belom apa apa, abis jagra aku ke ruang pamong disuruh sekom 10 gara gara ga ngumpulin buku apel, yaaa aku sih masih bisa terima emang itu aku yang salah, tetep aja masih kesel sama tu orang.

Di sekolah, ga tau kenapa, aku dilema. I don't really know what happen with me and my classmate. Since he told me that he has crush on a girl, i just felt something fishie. I don't know maybe it's too high self-confidence but HEEEY i try to tell myself that HE'S NOT JUST THAT INTO ME. But still... Moreover about his friends action.

I hate to be in my classroom.

Back to dorm, I finished my history task then in the afternoon I went to RBP for having presentation about Committe of Class. Waiting for so long then Jati decided it was impossible to present it today.

GOSH, bisa bayangin sebete apa aku ???

Sabtu, 25 Juli 2009

What a day! I'm a bit hate myself today, whoaaa I dont know why, everything didnt run as I have planned before. Just not like I was before *about a few days ago, seemed like I could run everything as I've planned! There were so many useful things I had done there were so many lessons I had studied but ... maybe not TODAY!


My mind just fulfilled with the words of 'online'! FACEBOOK! Making a new password, renewing my 'All About Me Questions', renewing LivingSocial, chatting with people *especially 'him' (what a jerk 'him'!)

Moreover the new girlfriend of my ex-boyfriend really pushes on me all the time! Whoaaa I even cant tell you how much I hate her *she is damn B---H! She really took my boyfriend *ex now* by force *lebaay!haha!eh, really it's serious!


Today is Friday, people know it as a short day, dont them?

After prayed at the mosque, I went dorm and took on my new AJUS *name for my new mac ;)* then went to Kenanga, for what?, yaaa nyepot laaaah! Argh damn it made me feeling guilty because I just couldnt stop my activities especially I couldnt stop when I was fullfiling the answer of 'All About Me Question'. I was there from 13.00 til 15.30! Damn, it was too long!

Then in the evening when every people should study, I didnt do it. just watched He's Just Not That into U that brought me so many question and made me realize about the destiny of being a woman or female. I just realized that being a woman or female is not that easy and being in love and deciding to continue our love story isnt that simple as we've seen in the another movies. Haha! It made me scared *a bit!


Ooooh how naughty I was!

Kamis, 18 Juni 2009

lalala

Say It
oleh: Rihanna

[Intro]
You should tell me whats buggin you
And Imma tell ya bout me
Make a wish and tell me your deepest thoughts
And Imma make it easy
Make a wish tell me whats buggin you
And Imma tell ya bout me
Make a wish and tell me your deepest thoughts
And Imma make it easy

[Verse 1]
Emotions running wild
I could feel it when I'm next to you,
Something's on ya mind
You wanna stay but wont tell me,
its about ya secrecy
So what are you tryna hide?
I know what the look means
You hold my hand so tightly,
Whenever we say goodbye
Standing by the door,
I could tell you can't take no more
Blow your secret open wide

[Chorus]
So maybe if you say it
Tell me what it is you likeeee (likee)
Baby baby dont be shyyy (shyy)
Maybe you can spend the nighttt (nii-iii-iightt)
If you say it
But if you playin (not wit it)
Cuz you know what I wanna hear (hearr)
Say it, that'll make it more clear (clearr)
I need to know how you feel
So baby why wont you (say it), say it (say it)

[Bridge 1]
Wont', won't you tell me
What, what's going on
Why, why you waitin' on it
What you waiting for?
Soon you should tell me or I might be gone
But I'm here for you baby,
You should put me on

[Verse 2]
I won't shoot you down,
Make you feel some kinda way
If you'll be honest with me
Put away your pride,
I can see it in your face
You want me permanently (unh)
Like how i wine when we dancing,
I know how it happened
And I'm right there wit you
But I won't be the first to out myself out there,
The feeling is mutual
But I bet if you

[Chorus]
Say it
Tell me what it is you likeeee (likee)
Baby baby dont be shyyy (shyy)
Maybe you can spend the nighttt (nii-iii-iightt)
If you say it
But if you playin (not wit it)
Cuz you know what i wanna hear (hearr)
Say it, that'll make it more clear (clearr)
I need to know how you feel
so baby why wont you (say it), say it (say it)

[Bridge 2 2x]
Your eyes steady talking
And your tryna fight it
But some things baby are not worth hiding
And we can find heaven,
If we go look together
So won't, won't you tell me,
And get it off your chest

[Chorus]
So maybe if you say it (saa-ayyyy)
Tell me what it is you likeeee (what it is you like) (likee)
Baby baby dont be shyyy (shyy) (oh no no)
Maybe you can spend the nighttt (nii-iii-iightt)
If you say it
But if you playin (not wit it)
Cuz you know what I wanna hear (you know what I wanna hear) (hearr)
Say it, that'll make it more clear (so boy say it loud and clear)
I need to know how you feel
So baby why wont you (say it), say it (say it) (saa-ayyyy ittt)

[Bridge 2 2x]
Your eyes steady talking
And your tryna fight it
But some things baby are not worth hiding
And we can find heaven,
If we go look together
So won't, won't you tell me,
And get it off your chest

[Chorus]
Say it
Tell me what it is you likeeee (likee)
Baby baby dont be shyyy (shyy)
Maybe you can spend the nighttt (nii-iii-iightt)
If you say it
But if you playin (not wit it)
Cuz you know what i wanna hear (hearr)
Say it, that'll make it more clear (clearr)
I need to know how you feel
so baby why wont you (say it), say it (say it)

Lirik lagu Jason Mraz – The Remedy :

Well i saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
‘Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring
Now something on the surface it stings
I said something on the surface
Well it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease
Well if you’ve got the poison I’ve got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it’s serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you’re gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won’t worry my life away..

I won’t worry my life away..
Well i heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the ways to stab
The brother in the be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh
Death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophy
Dance with me, because if you’ve got the poison,
I’ve got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it’s serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you’re gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won’t worry my life away.
I won’t worry my life away.

Q and A by Awid

Well, here are the Q's from Enjelitaaaa!

>what is your current obsession?
masuk STAN biar ga disuruh masuk akpol sama bapak

>what is your weirdest obsession?
nangkep 2 komplotan maling yang uda masuk rumah aku kemaren nimpuk pake batu gede sama ngulik2 mulutnya biar roti aku dimuntahin lagi! kesel!

>what are you wearing today?
celana basket nomer 11 kaos Australia putih tipis gede gombrong plus kacamata yang dipake kalo mata uda bener2 ga enak

>what’s for dinner today?
tergantung RKB!

>makeup kit you cant live without?
ga pernah make up an!! paling cuma pake sisir doang

>what would you like to learn to do?
change to be a better person who has a GREAT personality like THEY want me to have! Hfff.

>what’s the last thing you bought?
laptop yang abis diambil dari ruang pamong

>what are you listening to right now?
The Remedy

>what is your favorite weather?
musim pancaroba. kalo pengen panas ya bisa dingin ujan ya bisa hehe

>what is your most challenging goal right now?
ketemu temennya Enji ;p

>what do you think about the person who tagged you?
enjelita!! cant live without her! hehe

>if you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?Where?
Yunani kali ya? ato Itali?

>what would you like to have in your hands right now?
permeeeen!

>what would you like to get rid of?
ngecilin paha, betis, pantat

>if you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
tanjung! bingung kan di mana?? haha

>which language do you want to learn?
bahasa ...?
JERMAN, JEPANG, PRANCIS, MANDARIN! Biar bisa 5 bahasa hehe

>what do you look for in a friend?
kalo temen semua juga bisa jadi temen. cuma kalo best friend yang penting bisa bikin aku ngomong ato curhat. haha

>who do you want to meet in person?
mama sama bapak , eh adek juga deng! yang uda jadi hero karna uda nemuin maling haha.

>what’s your favorite type of music?
yang enak didenger laah!

>what’s the favorite piece of clothing in your own closet?
celana basket nomer 16

>what is your dream job?
ministry of foreign affair yang kabinetnya anak TN semua hehe

>any favorite models?
uda dibilangin ga suka fashion lalalala! kalo gerrard itu fashion model bole juga kali yaa?

>if you had £100 now what would you spend it on?
bikin sesuatu yang berguna buat semua orang apalagi buat mama sama bapak plus travelling ato petualangan bawah laut haha.
ga lupa beli permen bejibuuun. biar bisa bikin ujan permen haha

>favorite designer?
penjahitnya bapak, om roy tapi lambretaaa!

>do you admire anyone’s style
ga laaah! kayanya ga ada yang berani buat ke mall pake celana basket deeeh haha

>describe your personal style?
kaos gombrong gede ga jelas, celana basket, ipod, sama permen di kantong.

>last fashion magazine you read?
uda sebulan yang lalu kayanya! ga suka fashion!

ambil kuis dari fb!

The Basics
Hair Color: Black
Eye Color: Brown
Height: 158 cm
Profession: students
Relationship Status: single
Religious Views: Islam
My Favorites
Favorite Color: black and white
Favorite Car: jeep
Favorite Movie: Innocent Voice
Favorite Hobby: playing guitar, reading, traveling, diving.
Favorite Song/Singer: The Remedy
Favorite Book/Author: Cornelia Funke, J.K. Rowling
Favorite School Subject: Math, bahasa
Favorite Vacation Destination: rumah!
Favorite Food: es krim, roti bakar, nasi goreng, mi apa aja!
Favorite Restaurant: Mie Solo Nusantara ;)
Favorite Animal: kurakura
Favorite Store: all about cartoon store
Favorite Celebrity : Steven Gerard *masuk seleb juga ga yaaa? yang penting tenar deh!
Favorite Childhood Friend: Prawinda Fitri
Favorite Childhood Memory: ilang di mall Padang umur 2 taun
Favorite Baby Name: Furqan Nur Huda / Aria Langit
Favorite Person In Your Life: bapak
Favorite Facebook Application : living social
This or That
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Big Mac or Whopper: whopper
Coke or Pepsi : no for both
Beer or Wine: no for both
Coffee or Tea: both
Apple Juice or O.J.: both
Facebook or MySpace: facebook
Summer or Winter: both
Windows or Mac: both
Cats or Dogs: both
Boxers or Briefs: both
Rain or Shine : both
Chips or Popcorn: no for both
Salty or Sweet: both
Plane or Boat: plane
Morning or Night: both
Movie or Play: both
Walk or Drive: both
Money or Love: both
Breakfast or Dinner: no for both
Forgiveness or Revenge: forgiveness
Paint or Wallpaper: wallpaper
House or Apartment: house
Do You?
Have Any Pets: not at dorm, but yes at home
Have Any Children: havent yet ahaha
Smoke: exactly no
Drink: mineral water ahaha
Exercise: sometimes
Spend Your Life On Facebook: no!! life is not only for doing this. haha
Play On A Sports Team: yes for basketball
Belong To Any Organizations: yes!
Love Your Job: sure, i I dont love this, I wont do it. hehe
Like To Cook: sometimes hehe
Play An Instrument: bass or guitar
Sing: most every day
Dance: yes
Speak Multiple Languages: english and Indonesia
Ice Skate: a bit
Swim: yes
Paint: nonono I hate painting
Write: sometimes
Ski: no
Juggle: no
Values
Describe Yourself In One Word: cuek
Biggest Fear: frog and all about amphibies
Biggest Mistake: told something lie to my parents
Your Proudest Accomplishment: bodo amat
#1 Priority In Your Life: parents
Dream Job: ministry of foreign affair
Special Talents: speaking hehe
Where Are You Right Now: dorm
Where Would You Rather Be: home
Famous Person You Want To Meet: cornelia funke
Place To Visit Before You Die: home
Song Played At Your Funeral: the remedy
Personal
Have you laughed until you cried: kalo ngakak banget iya
Have you found out who your true friends were: yes, now and the previous time
Met someone who changed you: not yet. sapa ya kirakira?
Kissed anyone on your friends list: noooo
What were you doing at midnight last night: maen gitar sampe jam 1
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: TOMmy? TOMpson delon? TOMpel??
What are you listening to right now: The Remedy
What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: being with my family forever
Last time you saw your father : night leaving bareng bapak bulan April
Most visited webpage: facebook hehe
Firsts
First surgery : kutil di kelingking kanan
First piercing : anting umur 2 taun trus buntet lagi
First best friend : prawinda fitri
First sport you joined : basket ball
First pet : cat named Tom
First vacation : dari 2 taun uda jalan2 ke mana2. haha sampe lupa
First concert : ngejam di taman kota
First crush : Ogi Ramadhan Putra
As of Now
Your ex and You: just best friend
I am listening to: The Remedy
Maybe I should: change my attitude
I love: my parents and friends
My best friend(s): Tiko, Winda, Vega, Abud.
I don't understand: why I should live like this
The meaning of my display name is: liat aja di kalender Bali
I will always be: myself and wont change to be another peson!
Love seems to: complicated
I never ever want to lose: my family and friends
I get annoyed when: the time comes haha
Do you like parties?: sometimes
Today I: should pack on my belongings! banyak banget sampe 4 dus!
I wish: I could be myself for now and then