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Say It

oleh: Rihanna

[Intro]
You should tell me whats buggin you
And Imma tell ya bout me
Make a wish and tell me your deepest thoughts
And Imma make it easy
Make a wish tell me whats buggin you
And Imma tell ya bout me
Make a wish and tell me your deepest thoughts
And Imma make it easy

[Verse 1]
Emotions running wild
I could feel it when I'm next to you,
Something's on ya mind
You wanna stay but wont tell me,
its about ya secrecy
So what are you tryna hide?
I know what the look means
You hold my hand so tightly,
Whenever we say goodbye
Standing by the door,
I could tell you can't take no more
Blow your secret open wide

[Chorus]
So maybe if you say it
Tell me what it is you likeeee (likee)
Baby baby dont be shyyy (shyy)
Maybe you can spend the nighttt (nii-iii-iightt)
If you say it
But if you playin (not wit it)
Cuz you know what I wanna hear (hearr)
Say it, that'll make it more clear (clearr)
I need to know how you feel
So baby why wont you (say it), say it (say it)

[Bridge 1]
Wont', won't you tell me
What, what's going on
Why, why you waitin' on it
What you waiting for?
Soon you should tell me or I might be gone
But I'm here for you baby,
You should put me on

[Verse 2]
I won't shoot you down,
Make you feel some kinda way
If you'll be honest with me
Put away your pride,
I can see it in your face
You want me permanently (unh)
Like how i wine when we dancing,
I know how it happened
And I'm right there wit you
But I won't be the first to out myself out there,
The feeling is mutual
But I bet if you

[Chorus]
Say it
Tell me what it is you likeeee (likee)
Baby baby dont be shyyy (shyy)
Maybe you can spend the nighttt (nii-iii-iightt)
If you say it
But if you playin (not wit it)
Cuz you know what i wanna hear (hearr)
Say it, that'll make it more clear (clearr)
I need to know how you feel
so baby why wont you (say it), say it (say it)

[Bridge 2 2x]
Your eyes steady talking
And your tryna fight it
But some things baby are not worth hiding
And we can find heaven,
If we go look together
So won't, won't you tell me,
And get it off your chest

[Chorus]
So maybe if you say it (saa-ayyyy)
Tell me what it is you likeeee (what it is you like) (likee)
Baby baby dont be shyyy (shyy) (oh no no)
Maybe you can spend the nighttt (nii-iii-iightt)
If you say it
But if you playin (not wit it)
Cuz you know what I wanna hear (you know what I wanna hear) (hearr)
Say it, that'll make it more clear (so boy say it loud and clear)
I need to know how you feel
So baby why wont you (say it), say it (say it) (saa-ayyyy ittt)

[Bridge 2 2x]
Your eyes steady talking
And your tryna fight it
But some things baby are not worth hiding
And we can find heaven,
If we go look together
So won't, won't you tell me,
And get it off your chest

[Chorus]
Say it
Tell me what it is you likeeee (likee)
Baby baby dont be shyyy (shyy)
Maybe you can spend the nighttt (nii-iii-iightt)
If you say it
But if you playin (not wit it)
Cuz you know what i wanna hear (hearr)
Say it, that'll make it more clear (clearr)
I need to know how you feel
so baby why wont you (say it), say it (say it)

Lirik lagu Jason Mraz – The Remedy :

Well i saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
‘Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring
Now something on the surface it stings
I said something on the surface
Well it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease
Well if you’ve got the poison I’ve got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it’s serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you’re gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won’t worry my life away..

I won’t worry my life away..
Well i heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the ways to stab
The brother in the be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh
Death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophy
Dance with me, because if you’ve got the poison,
I’ve got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it’s serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you’re gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won’t worry my life away.
I won’t worry my life away.

Q and A by Awid

Well, here are the Q's from Enjelitaaaa!

>what is your current obsession?
masuk STAN biar ga disuruh masuk akpol sama bapak

>what is your weirdest obsession?
nangkep 2 komplotan maling yang uda masuk rumah aku kemaren nimpuk pake batu gede sama ngulik2 mulutnya biar roti aku dimuntahin lagi! kesel!

>what are you wearing today?
celana basket nomer 11 kaos Australia putih tipis gede gombrong plus kacamata yang dipake kalo mata uda bener2 ga enak

>what’s for dinner today?
tergantung RKB!

>makeup kit you cant live without?
ga pernah make up an!! paling cuma pake sisir doang

>what would you like to learn to do?
change to be a better person who has a GREAT personality like THEY want me to have! Hfff.

>what’s the last thing you bought?
laptop yang abis diambil dari ruang pamong

>what are you listening to right now?
The Remedy

>what is your favorite weather?
musim pancaroba. kalo pengen panas ya bisa dingin ujan ya bisa hehe

>what is your most challenging goal right now?
ketemu temennya Enji ;p

>what do you think about the person who tagged you?
enjelita!! cant live without her! hehe

>if you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?Where?
Yunani kali ya? ato Itali?

>what would you like to have in your hands right now?
permeeeen!

>what would you like to get rid of?
ngecilin paha, betis, pantat

>if you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
tanjung! bingung kan di mana?? haha

>which language do you want to learn?
bahasa ...?
JERMAN, JEPANG, PRANCIS, MANDARIN! Biar bisa 5 bahasa hehe

>what do you look for in a friend?
kalo temen semua juga bisa jadi temen. cuma kalo best friend yang penting bisa bikin aku ngomong ato curhat. haha

>who do you want to meet in person?
mama sama bapak , eh adek juga deng! yang uda jadi hero karna uda nemuin maling haha.

>what’s your favorite type of music?
yang enak didenger laah!

>what’s the favorite piece of clothing in your own closet?
celana basket nomer 16

>what is your dream job?
ministry of foreign affair yang kabinetnya anak TN semua hehe

>any favorite models?
uda dibilangin ga suka fashion lalalala! kalo gerrard itu fashion model bole juga kali yaa?

>if you had £100 now what would you spend it on?
bikin sesuatu yang berguna buat semua orang apalagi buat mama sama bapak plus travelling ato petualangan bawah laut haha.
ga lupa beli permen bejibuuun. biar bisa bikin ujan permen haha

>favorite designer?
penjahitnya bapak, om roy tapi lambretaaa!

>do you admire anyone’s style
ga laaah! kayanya ga ada yang berani buat ke mall pake celana basket deeeh haha

>describe your personal style?
kaos gombrong gede ga jelas, celana basket, ipod, sama permen di kantong.

>last fashion magazine you read?
uda sebulan yang lalu kayanya! ga suka fashion!

ambil kuis dari fb!

The Basics

Hair Color:	Black
Eye Color:	Brown
Height:	158 cm
Profession:	students
Relationship Status:	single
Religious Views:	Islam

My Favorites

Favorite Color:	black and white
Favorite Car:	jeep
Favorite Movie:	Innocent Voice
Favorite Hobby:	playing guitar, reading, traveling, diving.
Favorite Song/Singer:	The Remedy
Favorite Book/Author:	Cornelia Funke, J.K. Rowling
Favorite School Subject:	Math, bahasa
Favorite Vacation Destination:	rumah!
Favorite Food:	es krim, roti bakar, nasi goreng, mi apa aja!
Favorite Restaurant:	Mie Solo Nusantara ;)
Favorite Animal:	kurakura
Favorite Store:	all about cartoon store
Favorite Celebrity :	Steven Gerard *masuk seleb juga ga yaaa? yang penting tenar deh!
Favorite Childhood Friend:	Prawinda Fitri
Favorite Childhood Memory:	ilang di mall Padang umur 2 taun
Favorite Baby Name:	Furqan Nur Huda / Aria Langit
Favorite Person In Your Life:	bapak
Favorite Facebook Application :	living social

This or That

Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Big Mac or Whopper:	whopper
Coke or Pepsi :	no for both
Beer or Wine:	no for both
Coffee or Tea:	both
Apple Juice or O.J.:	both
Facebook or MySpace:	facebook
Summer or Winter:	both
Windows or Mac:	both
Cats or Dogs:	both
Boxers or Briefs:	both
Rain or Shine :	both
Chips or Popcorn:	no for both
Salty or Sweet:	both
Plane or Boat:	plane
Morning or Night:	both
Movie or Play:	both
Walk or Drive:	both
Money or Love:	both
Breakfast or Dinner:	no for both
Forgiveness or Revenge:	forgiveness
Paint or Wallpaper:	wallpaper
House or Apartment:	house

Do You?

Have Any Pets:	not at dorm, but yes at home
Have Any Children:	havent yet ahaha
Smoke:	exactly no
Drink:	mineral water ahaha
Exercise:	sometimes
Spend Your Life On Facebook:	no!! life is not only for doing this. haha
Play On A Sports Team:	yes for basketball
Belong To Any Organizations:	yes!
Love Your Job:	sure, i I dont love this, I wont do it. hehe
Like To Cook:	sometimes hehe
Play An Instrument:	bass or guitar
Sing:	most every day
Dance:	yes
Speak Multiple Languages:	english and Indonesia
Ice Skate:	a bit
Swim:	yes
Paint:	nonono I hate painting
Write:	sometimes
Ski:	no
Juggle:	no

Values

Describe Yourself In One Word:	cuek
Biggest Fear:	frog and all about amphibies
Biggest Mistake:	told something lie to my parents
Your Proudest Accomplishment:	bodo amat
#1 Priority In Your Life:	parents
Dream Job:	ministry of foreign affair
Special Talents:	speaking hehe
Where Are You Right Now:	dorm
Where Would You Rather Be:	home
Famous Person You Want To Meet:	cornelia funke
Place To Visit Before You Die:	home
Song Played At Your Funeral:	the remedy

Personal

Have you laughed until you cried:	kalo ngakak banget iya
Have you found out who your true friends were:	yes, now and the previous time
Met someone who changed you:	not yet. sapa ya kirakira?
Kissed anyone on your friends list:	noooo
What were you doing at midnight last night:	maen gitar sampe jam 1
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:	TOMmy? TOMpson delon? TOMpel??
What are you listening to right now:	The Remedy
What is one thing you wish you could change about your life:	being with my family forever
Last time you saw your father :	night leaving bareng bapak bulan April
Most visited webpage:	facebook hehe

Firsts

First surgery :	kutil di kelingking kanan
First piercing :	anting umur 2 taun trus buntet lagi
First best friend :	prawinda fitri
First sport you joined :	basket ball
First pet :	cat named Tom
First vacation :	dari 2 taun uda jalan2 ke mana2. haha sampe lupa
First concert :	ngejam di taman kota
First crush :	Ogi Ramadhan Putra

As of Now

Your ex and You:	just best friend
I am listening to:	The Remedy
Maybe I should:	change my attitude
I love:	my parents and friends
My best friend(s):	Tiko, Winda, Vega, Abud.
I don't understand:	why I should live like this
The meaning of my display name is:	liat aja di kalender Bali
I will always be:	myself and wont change to be another peson!
Love seems to:	complicated
I never ever want to lose:	my family and friends
I get annoyed when:	the time comes haha
Do you like parties?:	sometimes
Today I:	should pack on my belongings! banyak banget sampe 4 dus!
I wish:	I could be myself for now and then

Here is all about me

The Basics

Hair Color:	Black
Eye Color:	Brown
Height:	158 cm
Profession:	students
Relationship Status:	single
Religious Views:	Islam

My Favorites

Favorite Color:	black and white
Favorite Car:	jeep
Favorite Movie:	Innocent Voice
Favorite Hobby:	playing guitar, reading, traveling, diving.
Favorite Song/Singer:	The Remedy
Favorite Book/Author:	Cornelia Funke, J.K. Rowling
Favorite School Subject:	Math, bahasa
Favorite Vacation Destination:	rumah!
Favorite Food:	es krim, roti bakar, nasi goreng, mi apa aja!
Favorite Restaurant:	Mie Solo Nusantara ;)
Favorite Animal:	kurakura
Favorite Store:	all about cartoon store
Favorite Celebrity :	Steven Gerard *masuk seleb juga ga yaaa? yang penting tenar deh!
Favorite Childhood Friend:	Prawinda Fitri
Favorite Childhood Memory:	ilang di mall Padang umur 2 taun
Favorite Baby Name:	Furqan Nur Huda / Aria Langit
Favorite Person In Your Life:	bapak
Favorite Facebook Application :	living social

This or That

Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Big Mac or Whopper:	whopper
Coke or Pepsi :	no for both
Beer or Wine:	no for both
Coffee or Tea:	both
Apple Juice or O.J.:	both
Fac

abis dari fb haha.

HOLIDAY yeeey

Everyday is like holiday! Yayaya memang akhir akhir ini akan berlaku hukum seperti itu.

Namuuuun,

I always wait for the REAL holiday. Ooooh my lovely endlessly vacation!! I need you right now, really!

Gilagilagila...
Di otak aku yang ada cuma CUTIcutiCUTI uda ga ada pikiran lain selain itu *ada siih, cuma maksain ga ada aja. I've been so tired and fed up with all of these!

Benerbener I've designed every thing in every single moment of my holiday later. Weew! Every single moment should be nice and perfect. Ahaha!

Dimulai dari 22 Juni 2009
pagi : bagi rapor
siang : kalo perlu ga usa makan siang langsung CAU ahaha ke rumah bude nae mobilnya bude langsung ke jogja beli J.Co 2 doz plus black forest for my momma's bday *mama aku suka poool sama black forest! hehe.
sore : balik ke magelang
malem : istirahat prepare for my very long journey on the next day

23 Juni 2009
pagi : bangun, breakfast, go to the airport.
jam 11 take off, welcome to KALIMANTAN!!
siang : ketemu mama, mama pasti insya Allah jemput ke bandara sama Om Arif, aku ga bisa bayangin gimana ekspresi mama ketemu aku plus cake kesayangannya *hehe! abis itu jalan sama mama dulu di banjarmasin sebelum balik ke my little town, Tanjung! Sekalian aku mau minta beliin headset ipod sama chargernya yang ilang diKLEPTO orang sialan ga tau diri *aku ga tau sapa orangnya sampe sekarang, tibatiba ngilaang aja!
sore : on the way home by the car.
malem : yaaa paling midnite sampe rumah di saat si bapak dan si adek uda tepar ga bisa bangun ahaha.

24 Juni 2009
pagi : bangun trus tidur lagi sukur sukur ga disuruh jogging bareng si bapak haha trus nganter adek nae motor nganter mama nae motor juga.
siang : ngeloyor ga jelas ke rumah temen.
sore : pulang bentar ngeloyor lagi haha.
malem : ngeloyor lagi boleh ga yaa?

25 Juni 2009
pagi : kayanya uda harus olahraga deh! ga tau bangun apa ga! ahaha
siangan dikit langsung nganter mama jalan sama mama nae motor. haha.
siang : ngeloyor ga yaa? ato mau nyante di Bale Bengong?
sore : nyirem bunga *haha! ngarepp.
malem : ngumpul sama mama, bapak, adek.

26 Juni 2009
pokoknya seharian ini buat keluarga ato temen temen deket doang dah!

27 Juni 2009
seharian cuma buat keluarga deeh, sekalian minta traktir mama makan di resto seafood fave aku. hehe.

28 Juni 2009
pesawat pagi ke jakarta minta anter bapak mama adek langsunf dijemput Bimbie di airport langsung ke CheeseCake Factory buat beli birthday cake.

29 Juni 2009
jalanjalan! Awas aja dikacangin.

30 Juni 2009
Enji sama Tiko jadi dateng ga yaaa?

31-2 Juli
Have fun aja lah kau di Jakarta wid! Haha.

3 Juli
Ke Bali pesawat pagi dijemput Pakde Dira di airport.

4 Juli
Mama sama bapak sama adek come to Bali, have fun lah kau sama ur family there.. sampe 11 Juli haha.

for my beloved mom only

In this h-1 day I'd like to say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY for my BELOVED MOM who always patiently teaches me and for always being here beside me in every single moment of my life..

I just want you to know, I do love you and I'll always do!

Wish you the best, get well soon from your illness!

I'll be here beside you whenever you want and wherever you need me. I'll be there for you, Mom!

Sorry for all my bad attitudes which have hurt you! I just want to give the best for you to be the best one for you.


with all my heart, body, and soul
lovely,



your daughter.

regret...

Empty after this sad feeling and I dont know what to do again really. These all seem like avoid me and always try pushing me again and again and again.

DAMN! I do DISLIKE living like this. EMPTY really. I couldnt be like I am. I even couldnt find where myself is right now. Bcos all of these want me to separate from me to be a BETTER someone. Really now I am fed up with all of these, I lost my friends and I lost that faith…

dududuuuu.

I know MY OLD FRIEND, that I was going wrong and I was on the wrong my place so thank you very much to warn me and thank you for your attention really I appreciate your opinion *although you only told your NEW friend's opinion about me but still I did appreciate it so much.
And thank you bcos you actually the one who could make me realize and you were the one who could make me recover from this broken feeling.
But I do NOT even understand you today, THIS AFTERNOON. Sumpaaaa! Really maybe I still do NOT know all about you and I am not your CLOSE friend and it is just the same like you, but it doesnt mean that I WAS NOT and AM NOT YOUR FRIEND. You often said that you are regret for having a friend like me, regret for being care for me, regret and always regret.

Tell me where do I go wrong? Am I making mistake AGAIN? Or am I too burden you or am I am I am I?
I’ve followed what you want from me. I do have made some changes to be a different AWID. I do want to be a BETTER person from your perspective. I do and I do it. So whats more? What do you want me to do AGAIN?
Are you still not satisfied with all of my sacrifice? Are you still UNHAPPY to see me like this, now I am really HURT and SHOCKED here. IS IT STILL NOT ENOUGH? SO tell me WHAT IS MORE?
You were the one who could make me realize but also now you are the one who can make me fed up with all of these.
You have lost my faith and it is over now, thank you bcos you have stated me as your OLD FRIEND!

blue blue ooooh blue

My heart is feeling sooo blue blue blue oooh blue...

Ga tau kenapa mungkin karna serentetan kejadian yang uda terjadi ga sampe semingguan ini kali yaaa.
Tragis dramatis gila. Just so you know as far as we've throughed kita selalu kalah tipis. tragis dan dramatasi. GOSH. I dont know why, is it bcos of we dont have the ability or is it bcos of we were unlucky or bcos of we didnt have support or or or , really I dont know!
Dari awal aja deeeh, BASKET PUTRA ga tau ceritanya kita langsung lawan Obelix yang notabene rata2 juga sama kaya warriors yang ada 3 biji anak basketnya. Sampe2 yang lain pada bilang kalo itu tu sebenernya final. Quarter 1 sampe 3 kita masi unggul yaa ternyata finally kita kalah satu poin di detik2 terakhir. GOSH! Apa cobaaa?
Lanjut kekalahan kedua pas RENANG PUTRA nomer 6 limit beda 0.6 detik. Apa lagi cobaaaa! Masalahnya kalo beda 0.6 detik itu istilah kaya beda ga sampe 1 langkah. Gila gila gilaaa!
Lanjut kekalahan lain di FUTSAL PUTRI. Uda 2 sama tu di set 2 eeeh pas 1 menit terakhir si adek nendangnya maut gila! Akhirnya pertandingan berakhir dengan skor 3-2.
Lanjut di BOLA PUTRA. Apaan cuma kalah di penalti doaaaang! Apa siiiih?!
Terakhir tadi di VOLI PUTRA uda maen 3 set, set awal kita juga uda unggul. Eeeeh, akhirnya set 2 kalah, set 3 juga beda dikit walopun ga sampe sempet 14 sama.

Besoook terakhir penutupan, estafet masuk semua and I hope we do get the gold for both. Hope this afternoon also we can go get the 3rd number for the boy volleyball.

Tapi sebenernya masalahnya bukan di situ. Sejak seminggu lalu juga my heart has been feeling so blue. Sampe sekarang apalagi walopun aku uda ga nangis semalam suntuk sampe sampe mata aku bengkak kaya ga tidur 1 taun. Haha. Lumayan laaah uda bisa smile uda bisa nyapa orang walopun masi trauma dan takut.

Moreover aku kangen gila sama temen aku. Huhu.

Tapi seenggaknya ada laah yang bikin aku seneng (say hello to anak2 905 YTKI! Really I miss u sooo much!)

Sooo long time no see you my lovely blog. Really I miss the time I wrote all of my problems and thought here.

Haha. Setelah kejadian penyitaan laptop H-7 sebelum TAS yang bikin aku stres berat banget karena ga bisa facebook-an lagi *haha! yang utama YMan sih sebenernya akhirnya sampe sekarang laptop aku ga balik-balik bahkan sempet kedengeran kabar kalo tetep ga dibalikin sampe cuti terutama buat yang laptop sitaan macem aku gini. Huuua! Sumpa yaa kalo kejadian beneran awas aja! Mana bapak aku lagi berbaik hati buat beliin aku laptop baru dan aku minta macbook apple *hehe ;)

Banyak hal yang uda aku lalui sepanjang perjalanan 2 minggu lebih ini. Suka duka perjalanan menuju kedewasaan uda aku lewatin *alah! haha. Dari yang bikin aku smile happily banget sampe yang bikin aku shock traumatis dan aku ga brenti nangis sehari semalem lebih malah sampe2 ke mesjid cuma buat nangis. *really I was feeling so blue at that time!

Ga tau deh harus cerita dari mana. Yang jelas banyak banget yang uda aku lewatin selama sisa waktu PJSan sampe TAS dan beberapa hari PORSITARA lalu.

Here it was ...

1. Sabtu, 23 Mei kemaren I and my teammate (satu paket) followed the debate competition in FISIP UGM and we got the 3rd rank really! We also met M. ***** Wicaksono *haha! there. Just so u know that he was our adju on the previous championship in ALSA ACDC UGM. And yesterday he stood there as a debater not an adju anymore *weeeew!
2. Minggu, the next day, we really got bad opportunity. Yeah we lost baby! With the margin of a half and split decision and an unclear verbal adju and illogical reason. HUAAA. I couldnt really imagine that it was our last debate. Huuaa!
3. Malem minggu abis lomba kemaren kita dateng rapat angkatan bentar trus ke rumah Pak Isna buat inform somethin trus on the way dorm tepatnya di depan taman Al Eden tiba-tiba PEETTT. mati lampu gila sumpaaa! Ga tau lagi harus gimana trus jalan sambil ribut sampe depan koridor tapi ga ada satu pun yang berani buat jalan lewat koridor buat masuk graha. Yauda akhirnya kita terdampar di depan koridor sana. Bener daaah! Sampe akhirnya ketemu Said dan dia minta tolong salah seorang pamong yang lewat pake motor buat bener2 nyenterin kita sampe depan graha. Gilaaa! Ed, makasiii!
4. Seninnya tibalah kejadian yang bener2 bikin aku sakit ati parah, laptop KESITA! aaaargh! Ga bisa yman! Never imagined b4 really.
5. I really need to prepare for my last exam. Ich habe Angst vor dem Test. ;(
6. I really got explosive bcos of the NEWCOMER of my post table. Kesel banget sampe akhirnya besok rabunya aku bener2 ngusir dia. Sumpa! Ga nyangka aku bisa kaya gini.
7. 26 Mei, acara ulang taun di RKB dan hari ini adalah giliran aku buat naik mekor tapiiiii something terrible happened and it really hurted me sooo much! Besoknya dengan kurang ajarnya temen aku ngingetin aku tentang kejadian jerk itu. Gila, nangis di tempat deeeh!
8. what's more? aduuh kayanya kemaren tu banyak banget numpuk trus lupa. Yauda laaah yang jelas porsitara ni harapan uda cuma tinggal voli putra sama estafet cowo cewe moga2 nyampe limit laaaah. amiiin!