Here is all about me

The Basics

Hair Color:	Black
Eye Color:	Brown
Height:	158 cm
Profession:	students
Relationship Status:	single
Religious Views:	Islam

My Favorites

Favorite Color:	black and white
Favorite Car:	jeep
Favorite Movie:	Innocent Voice
Favorite Hobby:	playing guitar, reading, traveling, diving.
Favorite Song/Singer:	The Remedy
Favorite Book/Author:	Cornelia Funke, J.K. Rowling
Favorite School Subject:	Math, bahasa
Favorite Vacation Destination:	rumah!
Favorite Food:	es krim, roti bakar, nasi goreng, mi apa aja!
Favorite Restaurant:	Mie Solo Nusantara ;)
Favorite Animal:	kurakura
Favorite Store:	all about cartoon store
Favorite Celebrity :	Steven Gerard *masuk seleb juga ga yaaa? yang penting tenar deh!
Favorite Childhood Friend:	Prawinda Fitri
Favorite Childhood Memory:	ilang di mall Padang umur 2 taun
Favorite Baby Name:	Furqan Nur Huda / Aria Langit
Favorite Person In Your Life:	bapak
Favorite Facebook Application :	living social

This or That

Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Big Mac or Whopper:	whopper
Coke or Pepsi :	no for both
Beer or Wine:	no for both
Coffee or Tea:	both
Apple Juice or O.J.:	both
Fac

abis dari fb haha.

HOLIDAY yeeey

Everyday is like holiday! Yayaya memang akhir akhir ini akan berlaku hukum seperti itu.

Namuuuun,

I always wait for the REAL holiday. Ooooh my lovely endlessly vacation!! I need you right now, really!

Gilagilagila...
Di otak aku yang ada cuma CUTIcutiCUTI uda ga ada pikiran lain selain itu *ada siih, cuma maksain ga ada aja. I've been so tired and fed up with all of these!

Benerbener I've designed every thing in every single moment of my holiday later. Weew! Every single moment should be nice and perfect. Ahaha!

Dimulai dari 22 Juni 2009
pagi : bagi rapor
siang : kalo perlu ga usa makan siang langsung CAU ahaha ke rumah bude nae mobilnya bude langsung ke jogja beli J.Co 2 doz plus black forest for my momma's bday *mama aku suka poool sama black forest! hehe.
sore : balik ke magelang
malem : istirahat prepare for my very long journey on the next day

23 Juni 2009
pagi : bangun, breakfast, go to the airport.
jam 11 take off, welcome to KALIMANTAN!!
siang : ketemu mama, mama pasti insya Allah jemput ke bandara sama Om Arif, aku ga bisa bayangin gimana ekspresi mama ketemu aku plus cake kesayangannya *hehe! abis itu jalan sama mama dulu di banjarmasin sebelum balik ke my little town, Tanjung! Sekalian aku mau minta beliin headset ipod sama chargernya yang ilang diKLEPTO orang sialan ga tau diri *aku ga tau sapa orangnya sampe sekarang, tibatiba ngilaang aja!
sore : on the way home by the car.
malem : yaaa paling midnite sampe rumah di saat si bapak dan si adek uda tepar ga bisa bangun ahaha.

24 Juni 2009
pagi : bangun trus tidur lagi sukur sukur ga disuruh jogging bareng si bapak haha trus nganter adek nae motor nganter mama nae motor juga.
siang : ngeloyor ga jelas ke rumah temen.
sore : pulang bentar ngeloyor lagi haha.
malem : ngeloyor lagi boleh ga yaa?

25 Juni 2009
pagi : kayanya uda harus olahraga deh! ga tau bangun apa ga! ahaha
siangan dikit langsung nganter mama jalan sama mama nae motor. haha.
siang : ngeloyor ga yaa? ato mau nyante di Bale Bengong?
sore : nyirem bunga *haha! ngarepp.
malem : ngumpul sama mama, bapak, adek.

26 Juni 2009
pokoknya seharian ini buat keluarga ato temen temen deket doang dah!

27 Juni 2009
seharian cuma buat keluarga deeh, sekalian minta traktir mama makan di resto seafood fave aku. hehe.

28 Juni 2009
pesawat pagi ke jakarta minta anter bapak mama adek langsunf dijemput Bimbie di airport langsung ke CheeseCake Factory buat beli birthday cake.

29 Juni 2009
jalanjalan! Awas aja dikacangin.

30 Juni 2009
Enji sama Tiko jadi dateng ga yaaa?

31-2 Juli
Have fun aja lah kau di Jakarta wid! Haha.

3 Juli
Ke Bali pesawat pagi dijemput Pakde Dira di airport.

4 Juli
Mama sama bapak sama adek come to Bali, have fun lah kau sama ur family there.. sampe 11 Juli haha.

for my beloved mom only

In this h-1 day I'd like to say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY for my BELOVED MOM who always patiently teaches me and for always being here beside me in every single moment of my life..

I just want you to know, I do love you and I'll always do!

Wish you the best, get well soon from your illness!

I'll be here beside you whenever you want and wherever you need me. I'll be there for you, Mom!

Sorry for all my bad attitudes which have hurt you! I just want to give the best for you to be the best one for you.


with all my heart, body, and soul
lovely,



your daughter.

regret...

Empty after this sad feeling and I dont know what to do again really. These all seem like avoid me and always try pushing me again and again and again.

DAMN! I do DISLIKE living like this. EMPTY really. I couldnt be like I am. I even couldnt find where myself is right now. Bcos all of these want me to separate from me to be a BETTER someone. Really now I am fed up with all of these, I lost my friends and I lost that faith…

dududuuuu.

I know MY OLD FRIEND, that I was going wrong and I was on the wrong my place so thank you very much to warn me and thank you for your attention really I appreciate your opinion *although you only told your NEW friend's opinion about me but still I did appreciate it so much.
And thank you bcos you actually the one who could make me realize and you were the one who could make me recover from this broken feeling.
But I do NOT even understand you today, THIS AFTERNOON. Sumpaaaa! Really maybe I still do NOT know all about you and I am not your CLOSE friend and it is just the same like you, but it doesnt mean that I WAS NOT and AM NOT YOUR FRIEND. You often said that you are regret for having a friend like me, regret for being care for me, regret and always regret.

Tell me where do I go wrong? Am I making mistake AGAIN? Or am I too burden you or am I am I am I?
I’ve followed what you want from me. I do have made some changes to be a different AWID. I do want to be a BETTER person from your perspective. I do and I do it. So whats more? What do you want me to do AGAIN?
Are you still not satisfied with all of my sacrifice? Are you still UNHAPPY to see me like this, now I am really HURT and SHOCKED here. IS IT STILL NOT ENOUGH? SO tell me WHAT IS MORE?
You were the one who could make me realize but also now you are the one who can make me fed up with all of these.
You have lost my faith and it is over now, thank you bcos you have stated me as your OLD FRIEND!

blue blue ooooh blue

My heart is feeling sooo blue blue blue oooh blue...

Ga tau kenapa mungkin karna serentetan kejadian yang uda terjadi ga sampe semingguan ini kali yaaa.
Tragis dramatis gila. Just so you know as far as we've throughed kita selalu kalah tipis. tragis dan dramatasi. GOSH. I dont know why, is it bcos of we dont have the ability or is it bcos of we were unlucky or bcos of we didnt have support or or or , really I dont know!
Dari awal aja deeeh, BASKET PUTRA ga tau ceritanya kita langsung lawan Obelix yang notabene rata2 juga sama kaya warriors yang ada 3 biji anak basketnya. Sampe2 yang lain pada bilang kalo itu tu sebenernya final. Quarter 1 sampe 3 kita masi unggul yaa ternyata finally kita kalah satu poin di detik2 terakhir. GOSH! Apa cobaaa?
Lanjut kekalahan kedua pas RENANG PUTRA nomer 6 limit beda 0.6 detik. Apa lagi cobaaaa! Masalahnya kalo beda 0.6 detik itu istilah kaya beda ga sampe 1 langkah. Gila gila gilaaa!
Lanjut kekalahan lain di FUTSAL PUTRI. Uda 2 sama tu di set 2 eeeh pas 1 menit terakhir si adek nendangnya maut gila! Akhirnya pertandingan berakhir dengan skor 3-2.
Lanjut di BOLA PUTRA. Apaan cuma kalah di penalti doaaaang! Apa siiiih?!
Terakhir tadi di VOLI PUTRA uda maen 3 set, set awal kita juga uda unggul. Eeeeh, akhirnya set 2 kalah, set 3 juga beda dikit walopun ga sampe sempet 14 sama.

Besoook terakhir penutupan, estafet masuk semua and I hope we do get the gold for both. Hope this afternoon also we can go get the 3rd number for the boy volleyball.

Tapi sebenernya masalahnya bukan di situ. Sejak seminggu lalu juga my heart has been feeling so blue. Sampe sekarang apalagi walopun aku uda ga nangis semalam suntuk sampe sampe mata aku bengkak kaya ga tidur 1 taun. Haha. Lumayan laaah uda bisa smile uda bisa nyapa orang walopun masi trauma dan takut.

Moreover aku kangen gila sama temen aku. Huhu.

Tapi seenggaknya ada laah yang bikin aku seneng (say hello to anak2 905 YTKI! Really I miss u sooo much!)

Sooo long time no see you my lovely blog. Really I miss the time I wrote all of my problems and thought here.

Haha. Setelah kejadian penyitaan laptop H-7 sebelum TAS yang bikin aku stres berat banget karena ga bisa facebook-an lagi *haha! yang utama YMan sih sebenernya akhirnya sampe sekarang laptop aku ga balik-balik bahkan sempet kedengeran kabar kalo tetep ga dibalikin sampe cuti terutama buat yang laptop sitaan macem aku gini. Huuua! Sumpa yaa kalo kejadian beneran awas aja! Mana bapak aku lagi berbaik hati buat beliin aku laptop baru dan aku minta macbook apple *hehe ;)

Banyak hal yang uda aku lalui sepanjang perjalanan 2 minggu lebih ini. Suka duka perjalanan menuju kedewasaan uda aku lewatin *alah! haha. Dari yang bikin aku smile happily banget sampe yang bikin aku shock traumatis dan aku ga brenti nangis sehari semalem lebih malah sampe2 ke mesjid cuma buat nangis. *really I was feeling so blue at that time!

Ga tau deh harus cerita dari mana. Yang jelas banyak banget yang uda aku lewatin selama sisa waktu PJSan sampe TAS dan beberapa hari PORSITARA lalu.

Here it was ...

1. Sabtu, 23 Mei kemaren I and my teammate (satu paket) followed the debate competition in FISIP UGM and we got the 3rd rank really! We also met M. ***** Wicaksono *haha! there. Just so u know that he was our adju on the previous championship in ALSA ACDC UGM. And yesterday he stood there as a debater not an adju anymore *weeeew!
2. Minggu, the next day, we really got bad opportunity. Yeah we lost baby! With the margin of a half and split decision and an unclear verbal adju and illogical reason. HUAAA. I couldnt really imagine that it was our last debate. Huuaa!
3. Malem minggu abis lomba kemaren kita dateng rapat angkatan bentar trus ke rumah Pak Isna buat inform somethin trus on the way dorm tepatnya di depan taman Al Eden tiba-tiba PEETTT. mati lampu gila sumpaaa! Ga tau lagi harus gimana trus jalan sambil ribut sampe depan koridor tapi ga ada satu pun yang berani buat jalan lewat koridor buat masuk graha. Yauda akhirnya kita terdampar di depan koridor sana. Bener daaah! Sampe akhirnya ketemu Said dan dia minta tolong salah seorang pamong yang lewat pake motor buat bener2 nyenterin kita sampe depan graha. Gilaaa! Ed, makasiii!
4. Seninnya tibalah kejadian yang bener2 bikin aku sakit ati parah, laptop KESITA! aaaargh! Ga bisa yman! Never imagined b4 really.
5. I really need to prepare for my last exam. Ich habe Angst vor dem Test. ;(
6. I really got explosive bcos of the NEWCOMER of my post table. Kesel banget sampe akhirnya besok rabunya aku bener2 ngusir dia. Sumpa! Ga nyangka aku bisa kaya gini.
7. 26 Mei, acara ulang taun di RKB dan hari ini adalah giliran aku buat naik mekor tapiiiii something terrible happened and it really hurted me sooo much! Besoknya dengan kurang ajarnya temen aku ngingetin aku tentang kejadian jerk itu. Gila, nangis di tempat deeeh!
8. what's more? aduuh kayanya kemaren tu banyak banget numpuk trus lupa. Yauda laaah yang jelas porsitara ni harapan uda cuma tinggal voli putra sama estafet cowo cewe moga2 nyampe limit laaaah. amiiin!

Rehab by Rihanna

Rehab
oleh: Rihanna

(feat. Justin Timberlake, Timbaland)

[Verse 1:]
Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden
When you left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shot
That spun me around
And now my heart left
I feel so empty and hollow

[Pre Chorus:]
And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hit me
Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame

[Chorus:]
And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke all
These cigarettes no more
I guess this is what I get
For wishful thinking
Should've never let you into my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
It's not usual like how I'll leave
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my decease
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my decease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my decease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my decease

[Verse 2:]
Damn,
Ain't it crazy
When your love slams?
You'll do anything
For the one you love
'Cause anytime
That you needed me
I'd be there
It's like
You were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way
That I was using you
But now that I know
That it's not meant to be
You gotta go
I gotta win myself over you

[Pre Chorus:]

[Chorus:]

[Ad libs]

[Chorus:]

NB : Lagu iniii liriknya lucu bangeeeet! Gimana si? Yaa lucu aja. Awalnya ga kenapa kenapa dan rasa itu tumbuh seiring berjalannya waktu kaya drug yang kamu pake awalnya buat maen maen atau coba coba taunya kamu malah kemakan sendiri dan bener bener jadi DRUG ADDICT yang ga bisa lepas sampe kaya orang yang perlu di rehab. Widiiiih. Daleeeem! Haha.
Sometimes it seems like some of the story here reflects my story too! ;)